I was fine. I knew I fell off track a little. Personal reasons have kept me from the gym the past few weeks. I could feel the weight coming back. It was no big deal. I knew it would be fine once I got back in the swing of things. Besides I’m looking to be fit, not thin. Then it happens again, that soul crushing gut wrenching feeling that I am not good enough. That I won’t be good enough. I’m trying to not let it get to me. But why is everyone else allowed to be comfortable in their skin. But not me, like I’m some kind of exception. I know you mean well, but this tears me apart.

Personal rant.

Day 10 January 23
Day 11 January 24
Day 12 January 25
Day 13 January 26
Day 14 January 27
Day 15 January 28
Day 16 January 29 
Getting bad a keeping track but I’m still on task of at-least an hour every day :)

Day 9

January 22, 2014

Looks like today’s exercise will be clearing out the drive way. Didn’t get to the gym last night (technically this morning) because of the storm. In addition to my hour everyday I need to pay better attention to what I’m eating again. I hate eating at work, I like using my break to talk to the outside world. But I’ll figure out something.

Day 8 

January 21 2014 

Went walking to a river near my house. Going to keep walking every day the weather permits in addition to going to the gym. After having the worst hang over of my life I have decided to stop getting drunk. I don’t want to drink anything at all right now but I know later on a drink at dinner or something won’t be terrible. Although I tend to drink water with most meals anyway. I want to better my life style in more ways then just exercising. So as the days go by I will find more things to do to create better habits for me. I also have a friend who is willing to help me with my anger problems. I saw somewhere the only two days of the year you can’t do anything is yesterday and tomorrow. I have to remember that. Changes of yourself only happen if you make them. Every step I take is one step closer to being who I want to be.

Day 7

January 20, 2014 

So not your typical work out today. I spent the night out and I went to leave but my car could not get up the snow slicked hill. So we spent over an hour trying to get my car, and then my friends car. It wasn’t like a great workout but it was work. Going to try to get to the gym tonight, but I kinda really just want to sleep off this hang over.

Day Six

January 19, 2014

Went for a run with friends today. Over a mile, less than two. I couldn’t run the whole time but I tried, which is better than not. Also shot my friends bow a couple times. I’m getting better at the pull (his is 45lbs) but I need to work on form. He recommends the rowing machine at the gym. Half of whatever weight I can do for 3 sets (20 reps).

I feel better ever day! This is it. I can do this. I’m going to get fit and anyone who has ever made me feel like shit for how I look, what I eat, can be jealous!

Day 5

January 18, 2014

Double hitter today. An hour of qi gong, and an hour of archery. Have to get back to the gym though. Gotta get on that. Should probably work overtime as well. That’t it for today. Going to bed, and by going to bed I mean I’m going to be on tumblr for the next 5 hours. 

Day 4 

January 17, 2014

Skipped the gym again to do errands last night. So I went for a walk instead today down to the Millville Lock. I need to go at night again sometime. It’s a place with a good memory for me, from the time before the lost years. But I’m making up for it now. My doctor is really excited about all these new things I’m doing. I’m also starting to take a multivitamin and an extra D vitamin. 2014 it’s going to be a rough year, I know that already, but I’m going to make it a good one.

Day 3

January 16, 2014

Instead of the gym I went for a walk last night. Which is probably for the best. My doctor recommends I should only go to the gym 3 times a week, but I still want to do an hour of physical activity every day. I don’t really have much to say about today. Not feeling in the greatest of moods, but its Thursday, which means the work week is almost over. Tonight when I go again I’ll probably focus on abdominal and lower body so I wont be sore in my upper body for archery on Saturday. 

Day 2

January 15, 2014

I dragged myself to the gym again. Still sore from the day before I knew I was going to avoid anything heavily requiring my arms. As I was going it got easier, and I actually stayed past my hour time I was aiming for to finish another set on the machine I finished on. 

I warmed up with 15 minutes of walking at a quick pace, I should have paid attention to the speed and incline, but I programmed it for cardio just to get my heart rate up. 

Then I went to the machines and I actually recorded everything this time. 

Leg Press -                10 sets of 10 reps at 110lbs

Seated Leg curls-        5 sets of 10 reps at 50lbs

Leg Extensions-           5 sets of 10 reps at 30lbs

Rotary Calf-                  5 sets of 10 reps at 50lbs

Back Extension-           10 sets of 10 reps at 45lbs

Abdominals-                 10 sets of 10 reps at 15lbs

                                     10 sets of 10 reps at 30lbs

                                      10 sets of 10 reps at 45lbs

So my work out may not be super impressive but I’m proud of myself for going 2 days in a row. I will be going again tonight. I’m probably going to go right to the abdominal machine after warming up. I’m not sure what I’m going to target for zones tonight. My arms are still super sore. But I will probably do the back extensions and the leg press again at the very least.